Hobbies

 Yesterday I set my alarm for 7.30am, purely to wake up early to do Hobbies for an hour before my day started.  I did 20 minutes of colouring-in in a book called Cosy Corners.  I also managed to do an hour's worth of knitting in the day but the attempt feels pathetic, even though it wasn't.  If I had knitted an entire jumper I'd have been happy, I thought.  I think.  I'm just so consistently unsatisfied, frustrated, in pain either mental or physical, or being abused and tortured by MI5.  I have complained - them through me.  Them complaining and asking for help on my behalf when they themselves are the abusers, knowing nobody will help me.  Anyhow enough. - I'll put you off my blog forever...

This morning they will, hopefully have me at my Hobbies again.  I would rather that than watching the screen in my contact lenses for hours barely moving.  That's truly horrible.  I hate them.  Someone get me out of here.

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