The Adventures of a Youtuber Lady

 I just woke up from a nightmare about a man who was about to kill me with a smile on his face.  It was terrifying.  None of my housemates are awake and they are mad anyway. I'm going on a diet I want to get thin.  My YouTube page has become a dumping ground for emotional shorts.  I will probably lose subscribers we'll see.  I am very depressed.  Hey, you never know maybe I'll gain some based purely on the fact I'm not AI. A technological microchip almost came out of my gum.  Almost did.  My body hurts.  But hey, I got a shoulder massage yesterday evening from a man named Saint. Now what?  It's 2am...

 Really, there are no adventures to be told with regards to tonight: - I woke up at around 2am, made coffee simultaneously with a video, updating my audience (albeit a small one, I have 82 Subscribers) with my Writing endeavours - this, and the idea to write a book and a novel.  It is difficult to discover interesting and in depth information about the things that concern me the most on the net.  What I know - my field of knowledge - , is what the Government voices tell me.  And they lie all the time.  So what and how do I know what to believe?  I go by my instincts and physical feelings and my education so far.  I have studied at university level.  I feel distressed in some way all of the time by what they're doing to me.  It hurts.  I want them to stop.  But I am just a tiny insect to them, ready to be crushed soon probably.   There is a new addition to our household - a young woman who I don't know yet.  I don't ge...

 I used to wake up at 5am occasionally for Martial Arts, now I wake up because I am in my late 40s.  So, there are the Secret Services and then there is the secret Government (Government in the wider sense - not the politicians) who are controlling everyone, turning us all into robots.  It makes me wonder - that if everyone is being controlled by a higher authority/the powers that be - is there any need for the Secret Services any more?  The technology is so far advanced that is it even possible for people to fight against the system?  I think that the groups using people as pawns could fight - or the ones who aren't being controlled.  But they would be very high up (in the system) and how do we reach them or know who they are?   I haven't heard anyone else talk about these things, they are my own beliefs.  There is a big conspiracy going on.  And that's all I am going to say about it for today.

 My agent name is L. I am also a Youtuber.  This is my blog. About 2 years ago, perhaps 3, I began a Booktube Channel.  I was extremely paranoid about my health and the people around me because of voices coming from the Government directly to bugs (technological ones) in my ears.  Hence, my Booktube Channel was limited in what I was saying to the camera because "they" weren't having me speak much.  And they're still not.  I wish I could read more.  I wish I could speak more.  I wish I could speak the entire truth and be free.  They rarely have me lie.  They, however, tell me constant lies. The paranoia that they imposed on me has mostly gone but they keep it going sometimes.  They say they are the Secret Services.   So, there you have it - I am a spy.  And I reach people, and other agents, through meeting them in person, and on Social Media, mainly my YouTube account. Welcome to my blog. I hope that you enjoy reading ...